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16 <b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>My
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17 love,</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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18 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>Well
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19 I am writing you this on 13 July 2001, our anniversary. And what a year
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20 it has been! We have been through so much this year, our meeting and time
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21 in Kiev in July, September and for the holidays. We have had a few arguments
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22 and have managed to overcome them. We have even managed to get through
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23 your infidelity to me, something that normally causes a relationship to
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24 fail. I will not lie to you, it was a very difficult time for me. Quite
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25 a few times I thought that I should just give up on you and</font></font></font></i></b>
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26 <br><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>our
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27 relationship during that time. But something kept bringing me back to you.
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28 I just could not believe that you were a cold and uncaring woman and that
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29 you did not have feelings for me.</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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30 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>Then
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31 in Warsaw we became even closer. And even though we had to struggle with
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32 all of the problems from Warsaw we still managed to make the best of our
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33 time together. In Warsaw we got a taste of what it might be like to be
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34 together in a land that is a little more free than the Ukraine. I was surprised
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35 that we did not argue more given all the pressure we were under. I was
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36 devastated as I realized that I would not be bringing you home with me
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37 and that I had to send you back to your mother's. At times I was completely
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38 weak and you were my strength. Sometimes you were weak and I tried to comfort
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39 you. This was good because it shows that we work well together and that
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40 we both care about each other.</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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41 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>Now
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42 we wait for what seems like forever for the INS to process our paperwork.
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43 We must remain strong and determined and I must continue to push them to
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44 answer us and to fight them to get you here. You must remain strong at
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45 your mothers and not lose hope. I hate the fact that my government is taking
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46 so long to process this and that illegal aliens here in the US are being
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47 processed before us. I hate the days and nights that I am without you.
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48 I think about you all the time. Sometimes this hurts me because I miss
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49 you and want you to be here, to experience and share with me our lives
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50 together.</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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51 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>I
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52 have been waiting for so long, even before I had met you, to be with a
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53 woman would would love me and give my life a sense of purpose. And then
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54 we met and I knew that you were that woman for me. Then I had all of my
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55 hopes, dreams and efforts blow up in my face in February. Slowly I pulled
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56 myself out of this and we patched up our relationship.</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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57 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>From
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58 then until April we strengthened our relationship and got very excited
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59 about the interview and you getting over here. We started planning what
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60 we would do together and how exciting it would be. I dreamed of us returning
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61 to our house and being together for the first time and having the champaign
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62 I bought. I fantasized about waking up in the morning with you by my side.
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63 Then we would pack up some stuff and head out to have breakfast and over
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64 the mountains to the beach. I had planned on having a picnic on the beach
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65 and perhaps heading down to Santa Cruz or Capitola to do some shopping
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66 for you. I envisioned returning back home and your head would be spinning
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67 from all of the fun and excitement of our day together. I wanted to make
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68 you the happiest person in the world and make that day the happiest day
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69 of your life because it would have been the happiest day in my life and
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70 one that I would always treasure and remember.</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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71 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>Also
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72 during February until just recently my life had taken a turn for the worse
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73 in another way. As you know I lost my job in February and did not find
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74 one until June. You do not understand that the US economy has been booming
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75 for most of the 90's and my profession was in real high demand. Life was
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76 good for a long time. And at the beginning of this year all of that changed.
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77 The US economy has taken a turn for the worse and things do not look good.
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78 You do not understand how much this effects me, when I cannot work and
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79 provide for the people that I care about. To me that's a big part of me.
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80 And I had everything going so good in January! I had just gotten my first
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81 house, a nice house, close to my daughter's school and all ready for a
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82 woman to enter my life and make my house, home and life complete. I was
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83 making real good money. And after years searching for a companion, I had
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84 found the perfect one in you! Everything was coming together. Our petition
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85 was just approved and soon you would be here. Even though a year or two
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86 before, after years of searching for somebody to share my life with, saving
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87 to improve my home life and provide a home for my daughter, getting divorced,
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88 having my band fall apart and seeing my music fall apart, I seemed to have
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89 put that all back together again and was accomplishing all of the goals
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90 that were important to me. Who would have thought that in a few weeks everything
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91 I had put together would fall into ruin?</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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92 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>On
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93 that fateful day, 5 Feb, I received the call from Neil that shattered my
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94 very existence. Of course I was in shock and I could not believe it. I
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95 had to hear it from you and to my utter terror I found out it was true!
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96 Not only did I not have a job and faced an incredibly difficult job market,
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97 I just had my heart ripped from my chest. This two major catastrophes haunted
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98 me for months and they were too much for me to bear alone. Luckily at times
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99 like this one often finds that he does have a few people in his life that
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100 care about them. Mary-Anne was great in helping me as was her mother. I
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101 also had help from some people at HP, Kevin, Mary and a few others. People
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102 would shake their heads in disbelief as they learned of all the terrible
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103 misfortunes that crashed down at me at once. But slowly we managed to patch
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104 up our relationship and that gave me hope that maybe I could keep you.</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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105 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>Then
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106 I managed to get our interview rescheduled and once again we both had hope.
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107 But things crashed down on me again in Warsaw and I returned to the US
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108 without you - I left my heart with you again and once again my two major
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109 problems still weighed heavily on my heart and mind. The job market was
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110 no better and now the threat of losing my house grew bigger and bigger.
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111 Once again everything I've been building on was crumbling down again!</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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112 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>Then
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113 things got even more desperate until I finally got the contract in West
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114 Virginia, a place that I'm sure I did not want to bring you to but what
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115 else could I do? I felt totally out of control of my life. Nothing I would
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116 do would ever work the way I wanted it to. All the other forces and people
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117 in the world were controlling me like a puppet and I was powerless and
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118 helpless. But I decided again to continue to fight in any way that I could
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119 to make the dreams that I've had all along become true. Then the last minute
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120 job at United and the hassle to move back into my house and stay here.</font></font></font></i></b><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2></font></font></font></i></b>
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121 <p><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>And
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122 things are still not looking 100% good. This contract could end soon and
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123 I'll be back where I was before. And who knows how long the INS will take.
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124 But I will continue to fight for myself and to fight for you to be here
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125 with me. We belong together and we need to convince everybody else that
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126 we do indeed belong together. We both know and envision what our lives
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127 together will be like and we both want that life together. We will get
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128 there someday.</font></font></font></i></b>
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133 <blockquote><b><i><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FF0080"><font size=+2>I
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134 love you very much and miss you dearly,</font></font></font></i></b>
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