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7 <title>Hold Onto Love</title>
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10 <font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>This
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11 is my interpretation of this song and is subject to lots of things including
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12 what I was going through at the time. Yours may differ. Understand that
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13 I had recently separated with my wife and had taking a trip to Death Valley
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14 just to get away from it all for a while. I had enjoyed singing this song
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15 often in the past as it has a nice melody and the like but had not really
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16 given the lyrics much thought. On the surface it seems like a song about
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17 holding on to your current love.</font></font></font><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2></font></font></font>
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18 <p><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>I had
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19 thought that I had lost this tape. I was almost back to San Jose when I
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20 had popped in this unlabeled tape and had immediately recognized it. But
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21 when this song came on I was hit like a lightening bolt as I finally realized
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22 the relevance of the lyrics to my particular situation. So much so I had
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23 to pull over and with tears streaming down my face I just had to record
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24 the lyrics. Doesn't sound that traumatic now but it had real impact then.Here's
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25 my take on it:</font></font></font>
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31 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+4>Hold on to Love</font></font></b></h1></center>
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33 <center><b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>by Jon Anderson</font></font></b>
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35 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>There you have it, you see
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36 this love regretting</font></font></b>
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37 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>Right
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38 off the bat this seems strange. Why are you regretting love? Isn't love
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39 supposed to be cherished?</font></font></font></blockquote>
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40 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>Something's wrong again,</font></font></b>
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41 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>Something's
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42 not going right. As in my case this reflected the constant problems that
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43 I had had with my wife.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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44 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>but you had it in the palm
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45 of your hands</font></font></b>
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46 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>You
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47 thought that you had been in love and that you wouldn't be having problems
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48 but you are.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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49 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>Your heart has starting bleeding</font></font></b>
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50 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>Your
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51 heart hurts. There's constant pain from something that should be giving
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52 you constant pleasure - love.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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53 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>gotta get out believing</font></font></b>
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54 <br><b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>You're on your own forever,</font></font></b>
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55 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2><font color="#FFFFCC">No
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56 matter what you do you will always be with yourself. This, to me, is a
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57 statement of recognition that you have to realize that you will always
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58 be with you - and that you are broke - right now. Not very happy with yourself
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59 and you have low self esteem</font><b>.</b></font></font></blockquote>
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60 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>it's not the space or time
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61 or weather</font></font></b>
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62 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>At
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63 the time I had just been to Death Valley. There's a lot of space out there!
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64 Including the space I was trying to achieve by going away from my problems
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65 for a while. The time I spent doing this, while refreshing, didn't solve
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66 the problems.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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67 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#33CCFF"><font size=+2>(Chorus
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68 1)</font></font></font></b><b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2></font></font></b>
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69 <p><b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>You can leave</font></font></b>
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70 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>Yes
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71 I can take off - but it won't solve the problem.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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72 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>You want - you can't have</font></font></b>
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73 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>I'd
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74 like to have a loving relationship. But merely wanting it doesn't make
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75 it come into being.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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76 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>You need - you can't touch</font></font></b>
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77 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>I
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78 really felt I needed to relate to someone and to feel the warmth of human
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79 contact - the reassurance that I'm worth something to somebody. But I couldn't
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80 simply reach out and touch anybody.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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81 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>You plead it's enough it's
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82 enough</font></font></b>
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83 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>You
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84 get desperate and wonder why you just can't seem to connect with anybody.
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85 You want it to stop and for things to be good again.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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86 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>There's something happening
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87 to ya</font></font></b>
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88 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>You
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89 sense something changing - a reckoning, revelation or insight.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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90 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>Love can see right through
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91 ya</font></font></b>
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92 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>Though
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93 you wonder why nobody seems to see your worth, there are other lovely people
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94 who are picking up on the fact that you are in the process of changing,
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95 blossoming once again.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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96 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>In a world of make believe</font></font></b>
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97 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>In
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98 the fantasy world, as portrayed by Hollywood and incurable romantics as
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99 love, you have felt like it is some make believe thing that you either
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100 just don't get or that is unreal. You want to give up on it.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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101 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>Don't go throwing it all away</font></font></b>
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102 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>Wait!
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103 There may be some hope!</font></font></font></blockquote>
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104 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>Hold on to love - hold on
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105 to love</font></font></b>
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106 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2><font color="#FFFFCC">Hold
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107 on to the </font><font color="#FFFF00">concept</font> <font color="#FFFFCC">of
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108 love!</font></font></font></blockquote>
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109 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>Treat it as a good thing</font></font></b>
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110 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>It
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111 is not something to see as bad - rather good!</font></font></font></blockquote>
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112 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>Be always ready with that
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113 electric feeling</font></font></b>
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114 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>Isn't
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115 it electric when love starts? Are you ready for it?</font></font></font></blockquote>
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116 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>You work so hard - to be in
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117 love with her</font></font></b>
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118 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>Again
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119 here, with reference to my situation, I do believe that I did work hard
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120 trying to save the relationship and get the love back. But you can't get
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121 the love back just because you want it to be there and fear that it is
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122 not. In the end the love went away and I didn't want to admit that.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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123 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>She tried so hard</font></font></b>
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124 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>This
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125 is a statement of recognition that my wife also made an effort (there's
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126 two sides to every story). That she wanted and tried to make it work. But
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127 you can't force love to be between two people.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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128 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>you gotta let it go</font></font></b>
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129 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>It's
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130 time to let go of it!</font></font></font></blockquote>
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131 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>Hold on - hold on</font></font></b>
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132 <br><b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>Hold on - hold on</font></font></b>
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133 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>Here's
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134 another example of contradiction. He just said let it go and now he's saying
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135 hold on! What's he talking as about? My take is that you gotta hold on
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136 to the concept of love and you gotta hold on because you're going through
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137 a roller coaster ride! It's interesting to note that the background music
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138 is whirling around probably much like your mind whirls around whilst going
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139 through this. It did for me. This whirling music slows down at the end
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140 to a cadence.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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141 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>The more and more you hear
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142 it</font></font></b>
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143 <br><b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>The more it seems to make
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144 sense</font></font></b>
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145 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>How
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146 many times do you hear that you gotta love yourself first? You start hearing
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147 it a lot when you've separated and are in the process of rebuilding. Nonetheless
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148 you eventually start recognizing to what degree you do love yourself and
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149 start addressing what you need to fix to love yourself more. You swear
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150 you try to never lose yourself again.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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151 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>To hold love in the palm of
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152 you're hand</font></font></b>
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153 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>If
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154 you're really holding love in the palm of your hand then you are loving
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155 yourself. You'll always have yourself. Therefore you'll always be in love.
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156 Loving others will come and go and it is indeed nice. But the key is to
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157 have this self love and not lose it.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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158 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>But you think that 'round
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159 the corner</font></font></b>
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160 <br><b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>You queuing up to hold
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161 her</font></font></b>
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162 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>I
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163 was in and out of an affair with another women. At the time it was out.
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164 One thing on my mind was whether or not I would be able to re-establish
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165 this relationship with this other woman.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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166 <b><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font size=+2>But that won't make a difference
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167 in the end</font></font></b>
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168 <blockquote><font face="Freehand591 BT"><font color="#FFFFCC"><font size=+2>But
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169 that is irrelevant - immaterial - I have to get to the point where I love
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170 myself again.</font></font></font></blockquote>
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